The idea of effortless Awakening takes a total thought-reversal
The idea of effortless awakening takes a total thought-reversal. You come from a mentality of work hard and earn it. You think you must plan, prepare, and scheme. If you want something, you have to figure out how to get it. When you carry this mentality into the awakening experience you feel guilt and anxiety. Did I do enough? Did I do it quickly enough, well enough? Will I ever be able to do it? We can let go of this old training!
In Awakening, everything is given freely. It is that mechanism of “figuring out” that has to get washed away. The Holy Spirit does through you, knowing the call of your heart before the “little me” even speaks a word. Let the Holy Spirit do it!
You may be tempted to think that your study and analysis of the words of A Course in Miracles will lead you to Awakening. But, “You need take thought for nothing, careless of everything except the only purpose that you would fulfill.” T-20.IV.8:8 Hold the purpose of forgiveness up front and everything else is given. “It cannot be that it is hard to do the task that Christ appointed you to do, since it is He Who does it.” T-25.I.1:1 Let go of being the doer. Be done through; be open to be shown.
Your intuitive trust in Spirit is what leads you to Awakening. The Holy Spirit is the Voice for God, and as you deepen in your practice, the gifts of the Holy Spirit get more and more apparent. As we sink into our prayer to Holy Spirit, which is our true desire, the fruits of the Holy Spirit can be reaped instantly.