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SearchIn regards to all the years I spent in darkness, what was that all about??
Question:
I just have a question. I am no longer using alcohol, drugs, overeating, gambling, and the other things that used to be me. Today after eight years sober, I woke up wondering what that all was about. That's my question. What was that about? All of those years that I tried to run away. From me. From Love. I was consumed by fear. Today as I am surrounded by the Love of God, I know that I am safe. I am so new to this change in thinking that it's scary sometimes. Any thoughts you may want to share with me on this subject would be greatly appreciated.
Answer:
The turnaround may seem to be very disorienting because what seemed upside-down is rapidly being turned right-side up. Perception through the ego's darkened glass was backwards and upside down. Happily, the misperceptions of the past can never be figured out but they can be forgiven, and they do fade from memory completely in the Holy Instant. Think of it this way: to remember God it is necessary to completely forget the past. The past was the shield against the recognition of Pure Innocence: the Eternal Present Moment.
Imagine that you have been erasing a cassette tape. Now that the impressions from the past condition of the tape are removed a new song can be sung and recorded. There is no hint of the old recording in the new melody. The happy song forgiveness brings is fresh and clean and crisp and clear and ever new.
Forgetting and remembering are not opposites, for to the Holy Spirit they serve the same Purpose. As memory is used to remember the Present, it is withdrawn from the attempt to recall what never was. Remembering the Present is the Holy Spirit's Use of memory and there is no other use that has value. Forget the past, for it has gone.
In Gratitude & Joy,
David