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Feels like there are two persons inside me. Is this normal?
I feel sometimes as if two persons are living in me at the same time: what I feel as "I", which is quiet and simply exists with no thoughts - the "I" who becomes "joy", and another individual who pushes me and tries to take me out of my path. I usually say: "Stop bothering me now!" But in these moments I understand what people mean when they talk of the "devil" as a person. It really seems as if somebody is talking to me from inside. Is this a normal step on the spiritual path?
What you speak of is common on the spiritual "journey,” for often the ego seems to literally be a voice which is heard in one's mind. The ego always speaks first and can seem "pushy" because it always has an agenda or worldly outcome for what it "thinks" it wants. It does not know what it wants nor does it really "think,” for the ego has no unified goal and no power of real thought. The ego is just an unreal stream of pretend thoughts, and it is a Joy to pay the stream no heed. It is important to be firm in commitment or attentiveness to the Guidance of the Spirit within, and to the Still State of Being beyond all words that is the real "I" you experience at times. It is this commitment to the Spirit’s guidance that you rely on as you think, "Stop bothering me now!" A version that I seemed to use was "Get thee behind me satan." The form matters not, for in a moment of temptation it is the willingness to be Still or to hear only God's Voice that matters. And God's Voice is our Voice in Christ. Thanks be to God for leading the Way.
All Glory to the One.