The ego is a death wish, being the denial of eternal life. No matter how clever and ingenious it seems to be, it simply cannot replicate love and peace.
The path of awakening involves letting go of limiting self-concepts, accepting the mighty companions who desire to join in shared purpose, and intensive mind training. Once the mind is clear and focused, deeper realms of healing can be approached, including facing the unconscious guilt in the mind, the ego’s wish for death, and the fear of love.
Anger, hatred and private thoughts are a cover over guilt. Having taken many steps to loosen from past associations, and having undergone intensive mind training, Tris is now in touch with the unconscious guilt that is arising in her awareness for healing. At the core of the guilt is the belief that she is responsible. It is no secret that Tris is hurting over the recent deaths of her parents and friends, but she can’t bring herself to expose and share her darkest thoughts with Four, her holy relationship partner. She believes that it is better to protect him, rather than tell him the truth about herself. She believes her very existence is a threat to those that she loves.
The wish for death in the mind is arising to be faced and transcended, and it plays out in an extreme way for Tris to see, compounding her sense of responsibility for saving everyone.
Underneath independence is unworthiness. When there is guilt in the mind, the driving force behind choices is “I have to do it alone.” The belief in sacrifice is what pushes the mind to continually compromise and try to handle things, as a defense. And yet, as Tris is shown, she cannot be alone. Her mighty companions are those who have been given her to turn to, and they continue to show up in every step of the way because her calling is their calling.
The path of awakening has been planned by One who knows our highest good; and it is impossible to mess it up. Even at the lowest point, on the brink of suicide, the perfect symbol of love is right there to take the gun from Tris’ hand in calm certainty, because death of the body is not the Spirit’s plan; transcendence is.
The whole world has been given this holy purpose. Even when it seems to be the ego’s world and the ego seems to be in control of the plan; it isn’t. This is a misperception. The Spirit’s plan is awakening to truth, and even in the midst of the darkest moment of the storyline, the ego is not in control. The ego is deception. It does not know its own identity, or yours, and its attempts to condemn the Son of God and misuse the power of the mind for it’s own purposes can never work out.
Tris realizes that there is one plan that is playing out. The ego may have written the script, but in her playing her part without resistance and applying her highly developed skills and single-pointed focus to face the ego, she comes to the ultimate moment. It is a total surrender—the decision to no longer fight, resist or defend. It is the remembrance that this is a dream, and Who I Am cannot die. Who I Am is the Gift! When death is no longer a threat, the Son of God is truly free.